I HAVE been to two OA meetings and am a compulsive overeater' I am excited about this program and am looking forward to becoming the person I was created to be
My name is Michael and I am a compulsive overeater. There is no longer any question that I am powerless over my disease, and my life has become (long ago) unmanageble. I don't want to hide anymore. I don't want to seclude. I don't want the dark.
so here i am, 6 and half years clean and i am battling my weight...again. having once ballooned up to 314, then gotten down to 233, now, after injury and baumgartner type dive off the healthy food wagon i am at 299. i have to find my way again, out of the obsession of eating. it is "using" in a different sort of way- the drugs are gone but the need to fill a craving remains.
However, I never looked at the underlying issues that had been the reasons for my drinking. And so, even though I had not had a drink in over two years, I was able to still destroy my life. I had an affair. It was not intentional. I was not looking for it. But I did allow it to happen. I have destroyed my marriage. My wife hates me. My son hates me. I have lost the love and respect of the woman that I was having the affair with. I am alone.
I am a grateful recovering alcoholic, as well as a grateful recovering survivor of a couple of dysfunctional family systems. I have been on every side of this disease, beginning as the daughter of an alcoholic, the wife of an alcoholic (big surprise), my own alcoholism, and the mother of an alcoholic. Yes, this is indeed a disastrous family disease that destroys wonderful, loving people in the process.
I can't figure out how to use this tool. Where are the worksheets? Where are the posts? ughhh...lol...I will keep trying. I can't even find a help link!
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just getting used to using
just getting used to using the computer hope i can did this right
You are doing it write. keep
You are doing it right. keep coming back to meetings and keep journaling.
I can't figure out how to use
I can't figure out how to use this tool. Where are the worksheets? Where are the posts? ughhh...lol...I will keep trying. I can't even find a help link!