Submitted by Annamarie0177 on Sat, 09/01/2018 - 20:53
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Unmanageability
Question:
What does unmanageability mean to me?
Answer:
Dishonest to my familyou
Neglectid my kidschedule
Lost parental rights to my older ones
Lost our homend
Couldn't keep car
Unable to focus on responsibilities
Couldn't keep job or find one
Lied cheated to get drugs
Homelessness
In and out of rehabed
Unable to handle life
Needed to stay high
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Unmanageability/Powerlessness
Unmanageability/Powerlessness
It means when I have everything to loose that's good in my life and nothing good to gain from it, yet I keep doing it. I promise myself and everyone else, on my kids lives, that I won't do it again, and pow.... there I go again.
It is when I find myself locked up AGAIN the second time, after I promised and swore I'd never ever get in that predicument again, and here I sit, can't get out, can't see my family, my children are in the system, I'm at the mercy of the Judge, and there's not a thing I can do about it after I manage to get locked up again.
It's when my adult children hang up the phone because they don't want to deal with a messed up parent anymore. I try to not use around them, but end up messing that up too.
It's when I start inflicting self harm again because I can't stand the person I've become. Suicide becomes an option that looks appealing.
Those are a few....