Daily reflections - March 12
On awakening let us think about the twenty-four hours ahead. We consider our plans for the day. Before we begin, we ask God to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 86
Every day I ask God to kindle within me the fire of His love, so that love, burning bright and clear, will illuminate my thinking and permit me to better do His will. Throughout the day, as I allow outside circumstances to dampen my spirits, I ask God to sear my consciousness with the awareness that I can start my day over any time I choose; a hundred times, if necessary.
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Whether or not one believes
Whether or not one believes in a Higher Power, I feel that in seeking it, one can get that feeling that is described here. Additionally, while I used to dwell a lot on failure, I must remember to never give up. If I fail, then it is an opportunity to learn what didn't work, and I need to pick myself up, dust myself off, and try again. The Abrahamic God, among others, does offer a guide in which to assist me. I need to remember to keep on trying, one day at a time, and to keep moving forward. My goal is to seek what my higher power wants of me, and this is easier said than done at times. Whether it is internal (i.e. God within - the Holy Spirit, the Conjoint Actor, or something else) or is simply a matter of mind, in the long run, it really doesn't matter, as long as I do not give up.
I used drinking to dampen my emotions, which were overpowering me, and this resulted in problems of its own. I've proven to myself that if alcohol is available in front of me, I do have a problem stopping at just one drink. Therefore, I either need to completely avoid drinking, at all costs or if it is available, I must ensure that it is only available in such small quantities, that I am not overwhelmed by it. This is the real challenge, and for me, I think I will just remain abstinent and not drink. Now, if I could make a good non-alcoholic variety, then that would be great, as I really do enjoy the taste of alcohol, I just do not like the negative effects of it is all. Oh well, coffee and tea, here I come.
R.W. Thumper Hughes Higley Pruitt
Never Give Up!